It's great that fat people want to work out....

...in theory. We don't want to SEE them.....



At least this is the message I got. This local radio host made a post on Facebook yesterday railing about how a fat person got on the machine in front of him at the gym and ruined his sightline. I'm sure he meant it as a joke, but it brought up a real concern of mine about the gym. I've always felt like the fitter people would look at me and think "What is SHE doing here?" Not "Wow, good for her for trying." But "Eeeew, get out of 'our' house." And I was right. People DO judge you at the gym. I used to tell myself not to worry about what all the ROTC runners or aerobics girls on the ellipticals thought of me. They weren't concerned with me. Silly me. Of COURSE they were judging me.

It's part of the reason I haven't been swimming in awhile. I can just picture people looking at me in my bathing suit and cringing. And when you're trying to get back into a routine, little things discourage you. I haven't had a skirted swimsuit in years but I found myself wishing for one recently because then that would at least be SOME coverage. I don't NEED a new suit. My pretty, royal blue one piece is perfectly fine. Except, you know, you can see my fat when I wear it. My goodness, I wear that in public? Apparently, I should be ashamed of myself for subjecting other people to that.

I wish I was comfortable money wise. I'd just spent 20 grand and get myself a workout pool here at the house. Then no one would be forced to look at me as I try to work out in a manner that doesn't hurt my knee. Good God, I wouldn't want to gross anyone out or ruin their sightlines with my fat arms and thighs sticking out of my swimsuit. The horror.

So, yeah, it's great if fat people work out, as long as it's at the back of the gym.